Vices make life more tolerable.

So on January 20th, 2025, I made a blog post about how quitting my vices destroyed my mental health. I returned to some of my vices less than a week ago and it has been kind of fascinating. Some aspects of my life like the quality of my sleep got significantly worse from switching back to eating unhealthy food, but I have way more energy and it has become easy for me to stay away for 20+ hours again. I think if I can figure out how to naturally have a lot of the positive benefits to my vices like more energy and better mental health, but without the vices, my life would improve dramatically.

Worst aspect to quitting my vices was the severity of my migraine pain. When I attempted to quit chocolate in February, my migraine pain became comparable to when I quit narcotics in 2016. Literally the pain became so unbearable that I became useless as a human being. Like I was barely doing anything other than suffer in agonizing pain in my bed. Ever noticed how some coffee addicts have to keep drinking coffee or else they get a headache? I always have a 24/7 migraine, but without chocolate, my migraine pain issues are unbearable. I hope I can eventually quit chocolate without the side effect of rebound headaches.

My mental health has improved greatly since I returned to my vices, but I do not want to rely on vices for most of my life. Under ideal circumstances, I would love to quit consumable vices before the end of 2025 with occasional cheat days like birthdays. However, I might not be able to quit chocolate due to the migraine issues. A lot of people do not know this, but chocolate has caffeine in it. So it is possible that when I quit chocolate, I go through both chocolate withdraw and chocolate withdraw.

Having a healthy lifestyle is extremely hard. Most of our food and beverages are poison. A lot of healthy food is expensive, especially if you want a nutritionally diverse diet. Just eating the same healthy foods constantly can have their own negative side effects depending on your body. Going from eating a few healthy foods all the time to having a mix of healthy and unhealthy food had unexpected health benefits. That is because our bodies were meant to eat a diverse amount of foods. Hopefully I can figure out how to have a diverse diet of mostly healthy food sometime soon so I can live a better quality life.

Worst side effect I have experienced from returning to bad food is that my skin looks worse. My skin looked a lot better when I ate nothing but healthy food. So if you want to look younger and healthier, fix your diet if you currently eat a lot of bad food. Thanks for reading this blog post and I hope you have a super lovely day. Also, drink some water. You probably need more water than what you consume.

Quitting consumable vices destroyed my mental health.

Over a decade ago, I wanted to kill myself, but I learned that if I regularly indulged in consumable vices, the suicidal thoughts would go away. Like if I ate a ton of icecream with chocolate, life seemed good. Well, after indulging in bad habits on a regular basis for over a decade, the aging process kicked my ass in 2024 to where I want to quit all consumable vices in 2025. The problem with this plan is that it has decimated my mental health to an extreme.

This is my 2025 NEW YEARS RESOLUTiON:

1. Quit alcohol.

2. Quit THC.

3. Quit donuts.

4. Quit icecream.

5. Quit eggnog.

6. Quit cookies.

So far, I have successfully quit all six of those consumable vices and I plan to quit chocolate in February. The problem is that my mental health is now horrendous every single day. Like to appear happy, I feel like I have to play a character because I am insanely miserable. It does not help that I have also been very sick for most of this month, so I quit my favorite comfort food in the same month I felt very ill. My initial plan was to put a ton of effort into fitness so I would get an immediate direct benefit. Instead, I have been sick for over two weeks, so I am in way worse physical shape than usual despite quitting unhealthy habits.

My current situation feels like a nightmare. I spent most of last month recovering from a medical procedure, then this month, I am recovering from being very sick. I am physically out of shape compared to how I normally feel. My body functions like garbage if I do not exercise often, but whenever I exercised this month, I felt way sicker the next day. This has been a horrendous month of my life. I hate the current state of my life. I hope the rest of 2025 is better because the first twenty days of 2025 has been horrible for me.